I’m a little restless this morning. Like I cannot decide where to focus my energies. I have plenty to do (when do I not) but I can’t settle. Can’t focus on one specific thing. I think it’s because I’ve had a rare couple of days of productiveness. I’m finally getting somewhere. So, of course, my brain is going into rebellion mode. It would make for a great anarchist in its spare time. Now I just gotta train it to realise that it has no spare time until August. Though I think that’s also part of the problem. It’s still May and August feels like a far off dream. Months and months of studying and focusing are a rather daunting prospect. But I have nothing but my perseverance. Some days it wins, some days it loses. That’s just par for the course. I’m human and I’m doing the best I can. Who knows, maybe I’m just a touch lost with how much needs done and how little I feel I still know. But for now, I need tea and I need to study!


I’m thinking about the biology behind cherry blossoms. There are several trees outside of my building that have just begun to bloom and they are beautiful. Cherry blossoms have always been the quintessential signifier of Spring to me. In three days they have gone from baron trees to fully blooming beauties and I am eager to do research on what triggers this. What about this very specific day has an entire grove of trees instantly blooming. Why does it not happen several times a year? The climate can’t be that unique. I rather wish I was still in high school so that I could go and ask my Biology teacher, but independent study is far from a bad thing.

For now, however, my curiosities will lay in wait until my first cup of tea is finished.